This was so deeply relatable and comforting to read. Thank you for sharing it so openly. 🧡 I really connected with your description of living through a day with low (or no) spoons -- especially how you captured the mind’s pull toward despair, and the gentle ways you guide it back to steadiness.
I also loved how you wrote about your partner -- not as a "perfect hero," but as someone truly in the trenches with you. That image stayed with me. It reminds me how powerful it is to have even one person who accepts you fully, in peace and in storms.
Thank you again for putting this into words -- it made me feel less alone today.
I really enjoyed reading this. I admire your honesty and giving folks a look into your life. It's honestly what I long to do more, but I just feel like it would be so incredibly boring that instead I often try to put on airs as if I have some really profound advice to give to people when all I have is a mess of a mind that needs the release valve of creating things, with words, with music, with anything that takes the amazingly wonderful mind I have been given that some would call a curse and utilize it for things that give beauty to life or make others feel seen or just to make cool noises or cool marks on paper. I am so glad you have someone to be there for you, I feel the same about my wife and I do my best for her as well but when I get lost in my spirals like I have been the last couple weeks it makes everything so tough.
I had heard the spoon thing several times but when you mentioned it I googled it again because I don't know if I ever got it like I did just now. Essentially, these debilitating things that we carry around cause us to have a limited number of resources to spend each day that can vary depending on the state of our struggles and what we have going on.
Physically, I don't have any major problems but I have recently been made aware by a therapist that I am likely on the spectrum and bipolar which is fun news to find out at 36. To me bipolar seems a strange diagnosis because I primarily just feel sad and depressed more than I ever feel manic, however I used substances for most of my life and I wonder if those didn't play games with my brain chemistry. I am getting awfully long winded here, but I just like to engage with posts when I find them intriguing because I know that I really find it interesting to see what my posts make people think about or how they relate.
This was so deeply relatable and comforting to read. Thank you for sharing it so openly. 🧡 I really connected with your description of living through a day with low (or no) spoons -- especially how you captured the mind’s pull toward despair, and the gentle ways you guide it back to steadiness.
I also loved how you wrote about your partner -- not as a "perfect hero," but as someone truly in the trenches with you. That image stayed with me. It reminds me how powerful it is to have even one person who accepts you fully, in peace and in storms.
Thank you again for putting this into words -- it made me feel less alone today.
I really enjoyed reading this. I admire your honesty and giving folks a look into your life. It's honestly what I long to do more, but I just feel like it would be so incredibly boring that instead I often try to put on airs as if I have some really profound advice to give to people when all I have is a mess of a mind that needs the release valve of creating things, with words, with music, with anything that takes the amazingly wonderful mind I have been given that some would call a curse and utilize it for things that give beauty to life or make others feel seen or just to make cool noises or cool marks on paper. I am so glad you have someone to be there for you, I feel the same about my wife and I do my best for her as well but when I get lost in my spirals like I have been the last couple weeks it makes everything so tough.
I had heard the spoon thing several times but when you mentioned it I googled it again because I don't know if I ever got it like I did just now. Essentially, these debilitating things that we carry around cause us to have a limited number of resources to spend each day that can vary depending on the state of our struggles and what we have going on.
Physically, I don't have any major problems but I have recently been made aware by a therapist that I am likely on the spectrum and bipolar which is fun news to find out at 36. To me bipolar seems a strange diagnosis because I primarily just feel sad and depressed more than I ever feel manic, however I used substances for most of my life and I wonder if those didn't play games with my brain chemistry. I am getting awfully long winded here, but I just like to engage with posts when I find them intriguing because I know that I really find it interesting to see what my posts make people think about or how they relate.
So very relatable and beautifully written 💞
Thank you Leo! I badly need to pour this one out.